The way the system runs

What's the process of life now a days?! What's worth fighting for anymore? Because when you think about it , everyone is fighting for what they say they want more than anything. They say they would do anything for it, but when in reality, while they are " fighting " for what they want more than " anything",they are holding daggers behind their backs so that if someone tries to strike them down, they won't get hurt.  How sad is that? One person won't get hurt for another. One person can't stop thinking about their own safety for one second, long enough for another person to live on purely & not corruptly. Shouldn't that be what we all fight for? For the sake of the younger souls to not have to know what defending yourself means. So that they never have to learn from ignorant people with horrible morals and ways of life. So maybe what we fight for may never have to be fought for again. We saved a generation from hurt, heart ache & trust issues. That's the real battle, but we are too blind to realize it, because we are fighting our own, unnecessary battles.We created these battles & now we created inflicting pain upon thousands & millions of others that didn't want anything more than love.. To be loved. Isn't that what we are born into the world to accept? Anything other than love is foreign to us. How can we call ourselves the superior race when we can't even use the true definition of love anymore, without there being resentment behind it.

This is a belief

This is a belief. To our imagination, we can surrender to it what we please. What we see it as, how we see it making an impact on our life. We form it to our own subconscious needs, and with that, we see a higher goal, of being a higher self. That's why we are here. That's why we act the way we do. For the first time,our imagination is becoming reality. We are so thrilled to see what people have said won't ever grow, to become what we thought we'd never be, and in that light & that energy we grow.

Living a past can bring it's rewards

For those who need this in your life right now: 

To  be honest, I've tried to get better with not reliving my past everyday, but at the end of the day, it is a part of me & ive learned to embrace that . I treat my past as though it is a good memory even though the past you're referring to isn't . People get ticked with that. But I don't care. I'm trying to make the best of it . I stay in it sometimes because I'm still trying to find out more about myself. I get a lot out of revisiting that place. It's my journey that I'm going through and if I take longer staying in my past than others so be it. I wanna get everything I can out of it. I'm learning. I've never been a person that likes dramatic change & my past was exactly that. I'm trying to cope without having others help me. I want to find my path. In my point of view , the "amazing place " that I can get to will be even more bitter sweet when I can look back and see that I took my time on what I needed to & embraced & learned about myself, so that thenew experiences I encounter can be handled better . I also try to help other people by going off of my past. It inevitable really. I know it can't define me & I don't think I let it, but I do keep the past alive so that I can live and learn from it. 

Everything is lesson in its own light, waiting to be worked & used.

It  makes me happy that I can help others with my writings.If it wasn't for them I wouldn't be doing it. I wouldn't get pleasure from it.People impower me. 

.. I know it isn't good but I'm a girl that will put away my world to fix your problems before my own. 

I've vowed to myself that I won't let anyone get through life alone. 

God didn't make one person to endure the world & it's obstacles. He made us all. And we aren't to dig in ourselves to find answers from within 24/7. It's a lesson in disguise. We are forced to get over ourselves and ask people for help . If you don't get over yourself you're breaking yourself even more.

Has your job been done?

Always taking care of another person . Like it says we are supposed too. 

People surpass people as space being taken up , when that is SO FALSE. If you really think of all the complexities you have, and how deep your being gets, it's more than just space being taken up. I'm just making sure people realize the person next to them really isn't disposable & that they need to do their best to make sure the other is okay. No matter what the state is between the two. So yeah. I care. It helps you & it teaches my friends a lesson ; if they choose to learn it , it's up to them. But I gave them a better foundation to being a better friend. My job was done.

Is the egotistical eye worth all the conflict

" Through your eyes you see trouble. Through mine, I see a different kind of life to live."- Myself

Live off of the Canvas

" I follow the creases that lead me throughout my canvas and into what fate shall decide as my universe." - Me

We Set Ourselves Free When We Let Ourselves Be

" We lost our lives when we dropped our chains and here we are still striving, surving. Looking like a medal, so clean and polished. Knowing that the pain has always desolved the rust away from our forever beautiful frame. We set ourselves free when we let ourselves be." - Me

One of my Favorites. Short, sweet, and to the point!

" And just let me be free so that I can just be, and chase the sun."

Dig Deeper

This is a belief. To our imagination we can surrender to it what we please. What we see it as, how we see it making an impact on our life. We form it to our own sub conscious needs and with that we see a higher goal, of being a higher self. Thats why we act the way we do. Because for the first time our imagination is becoming reality. We are so thrilled to see what people have said won't ever grow, become what we thought we'd never become ... and in that light and that energy, we grow.

You See What You Choose To See

"They may call me insane, but they only say that because they are blind from what they choose to not see. "

Stay still

We lost our lives when we lost our chains and here we are still striving, surviving. Looking like a medal , so clean and polished. Knowing that the pain has always desolved our chains. We set ourselves free when we let ourselves be.

There is more wisdom to explore in tomorrow's promises than there is in today's despair.

This moment, right now, is so beautiful. It has the mixture of the knowledge & wisdom of being the oldest you've ever been & the last bit of ignorance & bliss you'll ever have. Being able to survive while losing yourself every second of the day & trying to find the new self you're becoming while making it look like you have everything under control is a skill a lot of teenagers fail to nurture. We cut, we bleed, we cry, we get mad, we wanna give up some nights, & we honestly don't care who sees us breaking ourselves down. We teenagers fail to remember there is a plan for tomorrow. There is more wisdom to explore in tomorrow's promises than there is in today's dispairs. People think that trusting people is basically shooting yourself in the foot, but I will never tell I lie to you ;  You have to be cracked before you can be pieced together . And once you are pieced together by another person you realize two things. - how much they have grown into tomorrow's hope of finding a way to help the world & you realize that you're now apart of a movement between today and tomorrow that will give hope to everyone else. An all you had to do ... Was live. 

" I'm not young enough to know everything" : my interpretation

“I'm not young enough to know everything.” 

> The beauty & known perfection is all given to a child once it's born. It's how it's journey starts. It comes into the world, hole & perfect. All knowing of all goods, and not  introduced to the bad. This is how the game is played. The child grows up and through every second of getting older, the child losses it's sense of perfection that was already present at the beginning. The child will know when it has matured when it realizes that this was the plan. To lose the perfection & good , and suffer through bad & evil (things that were learned in life. Not grown from within the child) Is To bring the child back to the point of removing the bad and still seeing the world in perfection. The way it did when it was born. You'll know that the point when the child was born was met when the " child" dies. It has experienced the world, through all it's trials & is still able to love and see the good in what the world still is. This is when you have a life well lived. You are stripped of what god has given you, an you are able to find it once more. That is the ultimate goal in order to get home. 

Speak your Heart and Mind

The people you have in your life are not secured for you to see tomorrow. The last text you sent them may just be the last text you ever send them. Were you content with what you said? Did it represent your true state of mind? People change. Yes, sadly, it happens to the ones we don't want it to but you HAVE to swallow your pride and tell them what is on your heart & mind. Even if the playing field is not the same anymore. Because when it comes to judgement day for them and you are relieving the memories, the laughs, the tears, the smiles ... you are going to fell like a piece of crap. Then you got to ask yourself why you never told them those things. How you felt. Oh yeah, your pride got in the way. The selflessness of you was over powered. Have you told someone how you have really felt today? You might want to. Things are not just being handed to us, especially as we get older. We have to fight for them. No matter what. & with todays generation I fear that that will be a struggle.. I fear they will give up because it is "to hard", only because its not handed to them. People will start closing off and shutting down as we go into the future generations. How are we supposed to dig a person out of themselves if we see that as to much effort? How are we supposed to then, dig within ourselves to form ways of LIVING with the ones we love and care about, rather than just EXISTING with them ...
I hope this got you thinking.
Time is precious and even now, even while we are young we barely have any.
Do what you need to do regardless. It will shape the person you become and they become. If you care about them, and you want the best for them; to be the best they can be. Tell them, let them know. It will help them in life. You are always the missing puzzle piece to someone else's dedication and hard work to life. Make sure you deliver. Not only will it effect you & them, one day, it could possibly effect our world.

You may not feel like you won, but darling, you won.

Ladies, this goes out for everyone.
A player is a player.
You will love him till you die, but he will forget you because you were just another girl that fell for his tricks.

UNLESS ... he hates you.
If he hates you its because he lost. You turned around and gave his BS right back to him and he wasn't expecting it. He did not expect himself to lose against a "little girl" He does not hate you for being all the things he says. He "hates" you because you figured out his game and smashed his pride.
 You exposed him to the new territory of not being protected by his actions. You pulled off his mask & broke down his walls. You have pulled him out of his shell for everyone to see the real him and he doesn't know how to cover it up and make himself look better. So naturally, he blames you.
In reality he does not hate you. He hates himself for losing the game that he set up in the first place.

Good job ladies. Show them we can play their game as well as they can!

She is a Girl

She's a girl.
She spend hours straightening her hair even though when she wakes up it is naturally straight.
She spend hours doing her make-up, just to subconsciously know that she is beautiful.
She looks at her wrists, running over the memories of him, even though scars are not left.
She writes letters to the people she misses, but does not miss her.
She has a special envelope for the boy that broke her heart, that will soon be going into the military.
They feel the love from her from that anyways, right?
Sadly, she covers herself in pity so that maybe he can recognize her.
That was the only way he knew her anyways; sad.
She loses herself over and over again at the thought of him.
She is a girl...
That misses a boy..
That will NEVER miss her.

You could be wonderful. but you're a coward.

"I do not care about you. I do not care what happens to you" said the girl. "Then way are you trying so hard for us to be okay again?!" said the boy.....
"Because I was able to learn how to love myself when I gave my heart to you, and I saw how you loved every flaw in me that I could never love about myself.Thats why I want us to be friends.So that I can see the good in your eyes and the good in myself again. You have always been a good person, but it took me to bring it out of you!! & that was the goal. To get you to realize that when you are good to good people you grow into a better person. They are only there to help you. I want you to be the best that your abilities will allow you to be, and that is with me. We bring the worst and the best out of each other. But thats okay because at the end of the day we still want the nest for one another whether we show it or not." Said the girl "and that should be enough of a reason for you."

Don't Let Me Fall

Why do you sit there and try to be happy. Smile at the beauty that glistens off of butterflies’ wings, look into a child’s heart, simply through their eyes. The life bursting out of them. Why do we try? They don’t know any better than to just be happy, just be free. In their minds, “why not be happy” “why not let people know who you are!? Its exciting to be living.” When people ask others to define the definition of adolescents its almost this simple. It’s the stage of transferring from the innocence of how the world was made to be, and what the world has turned into be. Being an adolescent isn’t an easy thing. You’re stuck, honestly. You have the choice to go into the unknown, still holding the world in your hands, seeing new things from the innocent, child’s point of view and get damaged and beaten, and broken. Knocked down on your knees from someone’s blow that was ignorant enough to take advantage of what god made the same as himself, but in a more pure light, and expect you to just take it. But does that sound so bad considering the other option? Going into the world as a snarky, narcissistic, young, adolescent. Thinking that they have the world, that the world owes them something, just for being born. Setting themselves up for public abomination, humiliation. Being eaten alive, and they are expected to be okay, to repair themselves without having help. They are expected to slap a smile on their faces and pretend nothing is wrong, because lets be honest. Who cares anymore about a broken human being? Its sad to think about, but the reason no ones cares is because they are broken too. That’s how they were treated. They see themselves in that young hooligan that wants more than anything to go back. To run back and not have to stand up on two feet and be treated against what humanity was binded from. Love. Unconditional love. 

What is perfection?

Life Is not supposed to turn out the way you planned it. Your idea of perfect changes when you finally find the "perfection" in your definition. When you find the "perfection" in the way you look at life you will start living instead of just existing. When you take a moment to thank god for the chance to live in the moment, realize how you feel. IN THE MOMENT. Not having thoughts and worries of tomorrow. Not caring about anyone else but yourself. When you can sit there and breathe deeply and soak in all the perfection the world gives you EVERYDAY that you have failed to really let sink in because there was that strive to find the MATERIAL meaning of perfection. This is when your definition of perfection is defined. When you can gather yourself and separate from the rest of the world and watch how this beautiful masterpiece runs. Perfection isn't that hard to find, but only if man could drop the idea that they make perfection, it might be easier to realize.